I'm trying desperately to stay cheerful this holiday. It's easier being single a lot of the times. You don't have to worry about what to buy gifts for his side of the family and travel all over kingdom come to visit relatives that you may not care to visit. It does not help that commercials and movies all promote that you have to be with someone in order to be happy. There is one commercial in particular that drives me up the wall-"Christmas is the time for dreams to come true." in a ridiculously sappy voice. Whatever.
This year is particularly hard though with the loss of what could have been. Right now, I just have to focus on God and give Him all my hopes and dreams and when the time comes I can be grateful for it. I have to be patient for his timing like Sarah and Abraham. I think I need to watch White Christmas and get me in the mood. Right now, I'm just really cynical.
Girl... I know it's a hard time, but you are being such a trooper!! You are right, though.... Holidays are literally a pain in the @$$ with in-laws. Especially if they are problematic ones. I'll trade ya! ;) (seriously, please!? This year I might actually tell someone off.) ugh.. Anyway, I also believe God has something special in store for you- I wish He'd just show you now!! :) as I'm sure you do, too... Eh tv & movies pretend holidays are all sappy & lovey. In fact, majority of fights happen over holidays. Stupid media. ;) I'm praying hard for you!! :(
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