Goodbyes

Saturday night I have to say good-bye to Rich. For the most part, I'm doing okay about it. I know it's better for me. It's been rather nice having something close to a boyfriend. We got to dance at least once a week when he was here at the studio and go out dancing once a month.

I've always been one of those girls that like to hit and tease people. Growing up with brothers helped with that. I felt comfortable with Faron to be able to do that, but with Rich I had a hard time especially when I wasn't sure what could happen. I wasn't used to being in a position where something could happen. This gave me a chance to start getting used to being around guys without too much pressure.

I'm struggling this week. For the most part I'm okay, but when I'm by myself I'm grumpy trying to mask the pain. I did not want to go to the women's class night, but it turned out to be a lot fun. We had some good laughs. Saying good-bye means that I'm facing the reality of really being single. I was able to put that off for a while, but now it's real. I don't mind it most of the time because grass is always greener on the other side, but I'm getting tired of always being alone.