Reasoning

Obsession can be a blessing, but mostly curses. Part of me wishes I didn't, but at the same time it can be useful although I'm not really sure why. I've always admired Leonardo DiCaprio's work. I admire him for picking quality work and not just be another pretty boy. He does deserve an Oscar. He is also an animal lover and actually does stuff like save the elephants. How could I not fall for someone like that?

I have it for him bad. I shake a little and get hot when someone talks to me about him. I only had one another person affect me that way. I guess the one good thing about obsessing over him is that most of the time I can forget about Faron. On the other hand, he reminds me a little of him.

I am somewhat surprised that I had to fight for him. I've always had odd tastes for people that I admire. I loved Fred Astaire and Humphrey Bogart when I was super young. Sean Connery and Sam Neill when I was in high school. I finally have an interest that is about the same age as me and people are after me about him.

I posted a lot about him because frankly I don't have much to post about. Second, there is a part of me that would love to meet him. If I kept quiet about it, there would probably never be a chance to meet him, but now people know that I like him-there might be a chance.

The down side to actually meet him would be quite a few. I probably wouldn't be able to function at all. I would just be shaking, drooling, and probably go boneless. What would I even say to him that he hasn't heard already if I could talk? I'm writing a 100 plus page story about you. (They say to write what you know.) That would get me a restraining order pretty fast. Why do I have obsess about one of the hottest and most sought after guys on the planet? I think ultimately that's why I have avoided going too deep about him in the past.

I'm very thankful that I have my mom who understands me and lets me do what I do and also for roommates who go along with it and give me a gentle hard time about it. I'm so tempted to change Henry's name to Leo. He would make a good Leo, but I won't. If I ever have a kid, maybe. But then again, tastes will probably be subjected to change.

Overall, I talk more than I really do. Even though I may talk a lot about it on facebook. I don't do have of what I say. Even for watching movies. I bought J Edgar, but still haven't watched it. I can handle him in small doses.