I had a good week. It's odd not being under constant supervision. I'm amazed at the positive reinforcement. Everyone says stuff like "good attention to detail," etc. It's nice ending the week tired, but not stressed out. The only thing that I'm afraid of is maintaining of the attorney credits. I'm nervous about that. Signing them up for classes is not hard, but getting them approved for the state sounds challenging. Once I do it a couple of times, it shouldn't be bad.
I really hope this is it. Now in my mid-thirties, it would be nice to get settled and then maybe find someone. Leo has helped me forget the past. That was a feat in itself. Ten years of thinking about someone or is it actually eleven now? He's never totally gone, but at least I'm more open to someone new. But how the heck am I going to do that?! Life is never easy. Once we have one thing, there's something else that doesn't satisfy us.
Despite being an extreme introvert, I do long to have someone there. The writer in me makes stuff worse. There are times I wish I wasn't a writer, but I do enjoy making the impossible happen. More often that not, I actually pray to God to take the need away. Life would be a lot easier if I didn't have that want.
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