End of the year wrap up.

Wow. It's been a very up and down year. It started off a little strong with a couple of job possibilities up in the cities but none of them worked out. I got to experience working in a law firm downtown Minneapolis and learned how to take a bus downtown.

I finally had to make the decision to move back home. I'm glad I did. I'm out and about much more than I was up in the cities. I'm having a lot more game nights. I never thought that I would get to know my cousin Brett and his wife Reagan like I do now and I'm very blessed to have them in my life.

One of those nights, I got a text from my friend in high school saying that she knew of a guy, Ben, that was into 1940's and ballroom dancing. It was so funny because I had just said that I needed a boyfriend and ten minutes later she texted me. So the month of September was spent texting the guy back and forth. We set a meet and greet weekend for the end of September. It was weird, but nice getting a text from a guy in the morning saying having a great day.

Just as I was about to head down to Austin on the Friday we were supposed to meet, he texted me saying that he was tired and wasn't able to make it. I was pissed off because he had just texted me the night before about stuff. Why go to all this trouble if you're not interested? Lol. I decided to head down anyway. I figured well maybe the next night we would meet. Thank God his buddy let us know that he was there.

It was a very easy time. We spent Friday and Saturday night at Torges getting to know each other. We talked a lot both nights. It was very nice having the conversation so easy. I learned how to drink Fireball Whiskey shots from his buddy. My brother's friends are impressed that I can do that. I had gotten to know his friend before him because a few weekends I would go and he wouldn't be there, but his buddy was. I was attracted to him, but he was too much of a player and I didn't like that he was in my ear all the time saying that he wanted me. I thought it was funny when Ben said that we were just going to be friends and I thought his friend would be interested and his friend thought that I would be too clingy. Lol. I thought that of him. Good thing we were both on the same page. I knew Ben and I weren't going to be together as soon as he had texted that he wasn't a fan of Leonardo's acting. ;) He didn't know to what extent I liked Leo.

Yes, Leonardo. He kept me going through the year. It's nice to have something distract me from the awful job hunt. I would love to meet him someday, but I don't think I could handle going to a show like Ellen's to see him. She would be the show I would want to meet him at. Lol. He pushed me as a writer though. I've written over 165 pages in one story. I'm sure over 500 total all together with different stories with him or as an idea of a main character. I've given him another name in some of them now. I asked my friend if I was borderline stalker, etc about him and she said that if I didn't have an outlet like writing about him it might become an issue, but I'm very low on the totem pole. I'm wanting to meet guys. Although like Leo having a type, I have a type too. I find the guys that I like are all pretty similar.

Yeah, Leonardo turned on my womanhood this year. Holy sugar! I've always to be married or at the very least with a guy. That's never happened. I've never even held hands with someone. I'm very cranky and more moody than I have ever been. I never thought I would be this old without ever having a boyfriend. The demographics at church are changing especially out of the metro area. I'm taking a leave from church for a while, not God, but church. I'm having some issues with single life that I never thought I would really think about before and not sure how to handle them. It's very hard to explain it to people especially church people because most people have experienced something, but not nothing. I had an "emotional relationship"/unrequited love with someone for three years, but that was the most I've had.

The bright side of this whole year is that I finally got a good job at Jostens. They have a good training program and I have a wonderful department that laughs everyday and is fairly drama free at least nothing like the hospital. The job is just email and data entry, but challenging enough to make you think. I even got a raise with hardly being there two months yet! I hope to continue there permanently.

I'm very thankful for my friends/friends and cat Henry who have kept me going this year without them I couldn't have made it. Thanks for pushing me. There were so many times I wanted to give up. I know God kept his promises and I can see where I'm glad I hadn't stayed in some jobs, etc. Thank you so much for a memorable 2013 year.