Today is the count down to September 1st. I need a job and an apartment by then. I have a lead with one job and waiting to get on the callback for a final interview. It's a busy front desk position that I think I would like. I'm a little nervous about a fast paced multitasking atmosphere, but I think if I was trained right, I would get it down.
I have another lead with a temp agency. I have my references down now I think. I hope I get something this week. Everything takes forever. I have to have faith that God will have the right job and apartment for me otherwise I would go in a fetal position which I have wanted to many times over the past couple of months.
Lately, I wish there was some way I can stand out. I get passed over by jobs and guys. With guys I pretty much self-sabotage on my own, I compare them too much to the past and at the same time I look so young. A part of me wants to go "goth" or some extreme and then people would have a valid reason, but I'm getting mighty tired of being ignored. Of course, knowing my mom she would make a list and be proactive about it. My mom is great at getting something done and not sit around wasting time.
I hate feeling frustrated. There are so many levels of frustration for me right now. I need to go for a good long gallop or at least a long ride on a horse and that would help. :) I miss horses.
This post makes me think of the show "what not to wear." I am NOT saying that you need to go on the show (thought I should clarify). In watching it I learned a few things. I know I often buy clothing styles I'm used to but maybe don't really flatter my figure. I know I went to many interviews (way back when) looking not very professional...you should buy a power suit! Maybe experiment with some new makeup? You could go to a salon that does makeup for ladies and see if they could give you some pointers on stunning yet easy to apply looks. I'm just brainstorming here. I sometimes get the feeling like I'm in a rut too. I think we've all been there...again :). I guess what I'm trying to say is don't be afraid to try something new! Who knows where it may lead.
ReplyDeleteGood point. I have been using more blush than I ever have. Having a model friend, Anna, has inspired me a little to wear more makeup so I don't look so washed out. I have been getting a little more looks. I do need to get out of a rut. :)
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