2012 Closed!

A stressful year has finally ended. It was filled with many rejections and tears. I kept pretty low profile this year to help save money. I did get to spend vacation time with family and that was a blessing. I'm very thankful for my family that helped support me. I wonder often how people try to do it on their own. I know I would be broke and homeless right now if I didn't have that. Sometimes that does make me wonder though if I'm not pushing hard enough because of that. But I am hearing across the board that it is tough no matter what.

God has given me enough hope each month to keep me going. I always have some type of interview to look forward to. I usually can see right away why the one position wouldn't have worked. I am getting tired though. I'm ready for a regular paycheck and a ROUTINE! I need a routine soon.

I'm thankful for my mom taking in Henry and having her cat, George, stay at grandma's. I'm glad we were able to get Henry's medical issues taken care of at home instead of an apartment. There was a reason why I had to move home.

Every time I have an interview I start what I need to do and think of possibilities where I could live close to that job, etc. I learned that I cannot plan anything God is in control. That came especially clear to me with the DaVita interview. I went to my job coach and prepped hard for the interview and then when it came to the actual interview the interviewer told me "I don't do normal interviews". My heart sank, but I did understand her point of view. If it's meant to be, it will be.

Overall, I learned a lot. While it's been difficult and hard, it's still not the hardest thing that I have had to do. I need to let go of someone that's been a part of me for ten years. I know I should make the leap, but it's such a part of me. It doesn't help that I write and he's my leading man in a lot of my stories. They say to write what you know. At least, I have Henry now and he helps keep me in the present.

Anyway, looking forward to a better year and an independent life with Henry that will come hopefully soon!