I'm used to waiting for a lot of things in my life. This year has been a stretching point for me. I just had an interview a day ago and I have to wait for the call, email, or a letter to whatever decision they have made. This time it's stressful because each dollar and day count. What to do in the mean time? It's always best to keep moving forward with resumes and continuing checking out job postings. There is a possible contract temp job that I could accept that would last until March, but I can't until I know for sure about this job so I'm not wasting temp agency's training time.
All I can do right now is pray that it will be God's will. Satan is doing a good job of planting seeds of doubt into my mind. Now that I had time to come down off the high from my interview there is time to analyze every single detail and obsess about what I did wrong. So far, I've been able to put a stop to it from getting too far deep. I'm also spending more time in prayer for other people when they post something on facebook in order to keep my mind busy.
Technology is also amazing. I'm thankful for Mom letting me use her laptop. I can multitask job searching, watching TV, and playing music. A new show that I am really enjoying is Warehouse 13-it's about secret service agents who have to gather famous artifacts because they have too much energy for the world to handle. So there's stuff like Edgar Allen Poe's pen that can take over the mind and a samarai sword that is said to be so aligned that it can slice through air and make the sword holder invisible. There was an episode about regrets. The two agents had both lost someone close to them and someone told them that "the biggest prison is the one that we put around ourselves." You have to be able to forgive yourself and move on. It was freeing to watch that. It's not always going to be easy. Some days are easier and others are nightmares. There is going to be a day that will come and we won't have to be so hard on ourselves because we will be in heaven and that will be something worth waiting for.
Hey Becky! I've been a bit out of touch lately. Haven't even been checking facebook....woah! I'm glad that you have the option of the temp job and will pray that you hear back about your interview soon. I love that you are praying for what you see on facebook. What a wonderful use of your time. Prayer is never wasted. I also totally understand over analyzing things. And you are right, it is a great way for Satan to plant doubt. It is SO hard to let things go sometimes. I will pray that you will be able to do so. Hang tight to Jesus' love and promises and tell Satan to get lost. You don't belong to him. Hopefully we can talk soon :)
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